My Dream, My Desires

I dreamt about my grandma. I woke up with tears in my eyes.

I've been having this dream whereby my grandma survived her kidney failure and is still alive.

Everytime I have this dream I have the fear of losing her again.

My grandma is so real in my dreams, so real I believe she's really there. In the dream I would be able carry out all my deepest desires, to relive the past with my grandma.

I would tell her all my stories, my problems. I would help her in the kitchen. Simple things that are impossible when i'm awake.

Towards the end of the dream I just want to tell her how much I love her, how much I miss her. Tell her how much I fear of losing her again. She'd smile and tell me not to worry but i'm already crying in my dream.

And before I know it i'm awake with tears in my eyes.