Final Struggle
I made a post based on Ps Chin's 'Exchanging Your Strength With Jesus' Strength' sermon, it was titiled Boasting In My Weaknesses.
In that post i mentioned about letting go and letting God. We do not need to fight life's toughest battles, Jesus has fought and conquered it all at the cross for us. As children of God, we will live an abundant life and by that i mean a life full of love, health and prosperity. All that we want and need will be provided. Our part is just to open our doors to recieve. Its that simple. However problem arises when we depend on our self effort. For example, we work hard, but we don't look to our hard work to give us the results, we look to God who never disappoints. God can't work when we insist to work for Him. God will not be able to provide when we strive to provide for ourselves.
Simple enough. Upon knowing that truth, I felt secure in my life, my future. I gave everything to God. At least I thought I did - I never gave my relationships to God.
I realised this upon falling for a girl. One day I woke up feeling in love. I thought I was in love with Daddy God, my day went by great, until I got hurt. My heart just sank, that lovely feeling just disappeared. Clearly I wasn't in love with Daddy God. I was unconciously using my self effort in my relationships. For this case, i was hoping that by loving and caring more for that girl I would be loved and cared for in return, apparently thats not the case.
Recently, i got really upset because of this and thats when i know God is telling me i've still not given this part of my life to Him. Its easy to give and believe God for things like success and health, we don't fall in love with our career, but we fall in love with people. I've fallen deeply for this girl and it hurts holding on to this love knowing that no matter what i do its not gonna work.
I questioned God why me? why is it so hard for me? why can't i have someone i love? and i believe the answer is because He loves me. Ps Chin's life is a perfect example of a man who struggled with God in this area and also a perfect testament to God's grace and love when he decided to let go.
I hate going through this, but i'm glad that God pointed out the final area of my life in which i've yet to let go. I've had enough problems with my relationships and its time to give all of them to Daddy. The only way i could let go is to see the bigger picture of Daddy's great blessing for me. I'm asking Daddy for a revelation of that blessing for i know Daddy's making a way for Greatness in my life.
I'm back home, with my friends and family. I wanna cherish and enjoy my time back home, not getting upset over something i can't change. This will be my final struggle, i'm handling my relationships to Daddy and He'll return them a hundreth times better in quantity and in quality.
In that post i mentioned about letting go and letting God. We do not need to fight life's toughest battles, Jesus has fought and conquered it all at the cross for us. As children of God, we will live an abundant life and by that i mean a life full of love, health and prosperity. All that we want and need will be provided. Our part is just to open our doors to recieve. Its that simple. However problem arises when we depend on our self effort. For example, we work hard, but we don't look to our hard work to give us the results, we look to God who never disappoints. God can't work when we insist to work for Him. God will not be able to provide when we strive to provide for ourselves.
Simple enough. Upon knowing that truth, I felt secure in my life, my future. I gave everything to God. At least I thought I did - I never gave my relationships to God.
I realised this upon falling for a girl. One day I woke up feeling in love. I thought I was in love with Daddy God, my day went by great, until I got hurt. My heart just sank, that lovely feeling just disappeared. Clearly I wasn't in love with Daddy God. I was unconciously using my self effort in my relationships. For this case, i was hoping that by loving and caring more for that girl I would be loved and cared for in return, apparently thats not the case.
Recently, i got really upset because of this and thats when i know God is telling me i've still not given this part of my life to Him. Its easy to give and believe God for things like success and health, we don't fall in love with our career, but we fall in love with people. I've fallen deeply for this girl and it hurts holding on to this love knowing that no matter what i do its not gonna work.
I questioned God why me? why is it so hard for me? why can't i have someone i love? and i believe the answer is because He loves me. Ps Chin's life is a perfect example of a man who struggled with God in this area and also a perfect testament to God's grace and love when he decided to let go.
I hate going through this, but i'm glad that God pointed out the final area of my life in which i've yet to let go. I've had enough problems with my relationships and its time to give all of them to Daddy. The only way i could let go is to see the bigger picture of Daddy's great blessing for me. I'm asking Daddy for a revelation of that blessing for i know Daddy's making a way for Greatness in my life.
I'm back home, with my friends and family. I wanna cherish and enjoy my time back home, not getting upset over something i can't change. This will be my final struggle, i'm handling my relationships to Daddy and He'll return them a hundreth times better in quantity and in quality.
posted by Jonathan Wan at
1:53 AM
3 Comments:
Same here. I depended on my self-effort when it came to relationships. I know I can be dick sometimes trying to get a girl's attention but I've came to realize that no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to suceed without God's help. I know God is willing to provide everything for me, but I was cocky and depended on myself saying that I don't need Him in this area. Like you, I was getting very impatient and because of that I was envious of many of my friends who are in a relationship now.
Maybe God is telling me that I don't need one now and there's no need for me to get into a relationship now. I know He is telling me to be patient.
Anyway, I believe that God is so good that He will provide one for us la just as He provided one for everyone. Only time will tell. Even the most evil, useless or ugliest person on earth can get a life partner. So, I believe that God will definitely provide one for us coz' we ain't that bad after all =)
see ya, my friend. Jesus rawks baby =)
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Anonymous, at 12:42 PM
like that la Jonathan, memandangkan kita ni heng dai, maybe we go travel around the world and find our gals next time la :p
when i finish my course.. haha... unless u be patient a bit la... don't so fast find one now. hehe...
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Anonymous, at 7:37 PM
err no need to travel around the world. everything's already here.
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Jonathan Wan, at 1:54 AM
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