Homeward Bound

One week from now and i'll be on my way home. I seriously can't wait to go home, yet home will never be the same again. But i'm hopeful that its only going to get better.

I've been super emo lately, been listening to too many emotional chinese songs lately thanks to mp3.baidu.com - awesome website that lets u download almost every chinese song in existance.

Life is full of regrets dont you think? Sometimes people come and go so fast in your life you could only regret not being able to know them better. I've made some really sweet friends in Switzerland but i'm not sure will i be seeing them in 2nd year as everyone is contemplating on changing to another school. But short friendships can be quite sweet, you know them long enough to have fun but short enough to avoid conflict.

Also i find life to be a big empty void of nothingness. See how i empahsize on the emptiness, i'm using 3 words bearing the same meaning to express how empty i think life is. Okay la, its not that bad. Life isn't oblivion but it sure is one heck of a long journey.

I'm not walking in oblivion i'm just walking in the desert or a big big plain with nothing but sand waiting to enter my promised land. at least thats how i feel. God sees me successful, he sees me prosperous and all because God is outside time. He sees us as who we become eventually, which is good. I however do not have the sixth sense and am not patient enough to wait!!

Yes i confess i'm one impatient brat. i complain that i dun have the things i want, but know i will have them, still i complain. complain about life and its emptiness, meaningless existance when i very well know that its not. must be the songs.

Perhaps we're all impatient one way or another, the only difference is that we exercise our inability to be patient differently. Some go on relationships after relationships, some take drugs, some are so impatient they just kill themselves. I however am too gutless to do any of those except to whine on my blog. haha.

still everytime i whine i'm reminded that He's love and promises endure forever. so all the promises he made will come to past because of Jesus! mayb this is what the world calls as growing pains la.

anyhow, tomorrow's the beginning of my Finals and must study sikit. i'll see some of you real soon. buh bye.